Don't criticise yourself too much, my dear. Just focus on what matters, what really matters to you. As I stumbled upon this phrase, " how much of what is weighing you down isn't yours to carry?" What gives you joy? What makes you relieve? What makes you think "oh, life is beautiful!"? You mind might tell you follow the predictable paths, because that's rational and logical, while your heart tells you however I am afraid I love different things. You might be criticising yourself, that's irresponsible and irrelevant, you should aim all to be successful. So you will not regret in later years. Because you will have all the wonderful and beautiful things later in your life. They are protection. Make sure you have something to fall back on when you fail. Maybe in the end, what has been holding you back is your fear. Your fear of having nothings in the end while others are building a successful life. But ask yourself, be honest with yourself, is
